Reading through my journal, I stumbled upon this today.
There is so much on my mind. I have a great desire to educate my brain, to teach and train my children, to exercise my body, to do away with my bad habits, to reach out to others and make a positive difference in the world, and to draw closer to God and dive deeper into spiritual understanding. I know I can't make all these great changes 100% effectively all at once. Where should I begin? I could spend all my spare time in any one of these areas. In the meantime, my home is a dirty and messy area and is making me feel crazy! Every day seems to require more energy than I have. I long for more energy, more discipline of my time, more patience for how things are. How do I balance between being joyful and content with life while continuing to strive for higher goals?
Dear God, please remind me to daily seek your will, your wisdom, your strength. I am helpless on my own - overwhelmed by my desires for perfection. You don't require "perfection" as I view it. Instead, Lord, I give You my heart and will. Thank you for being a gentle and patient God! Amen.